Wednesday, 20 October 2021
Blinkers Context
Today, one of the people I’ve worked with, in some form, has left – let’s call him Leo. Leo wasn’t retiring but moving to another job. It was quite a shock when one of the “lifers” retired. Personally, I thought Leo would hang around until he retired. Leo’s retirement happened relatively soon after I had my blinkers removed.
In all honesty, I wasn’t sure how to take Leo’s leaving. For many years, I respected him and would defend him. Belatedly, I witnessed some unconscious bias affect people around me over the past couple of years. It wasn’t until it affected me, however, that I saw how blinkered my view had been.
Like with any blinker removal, there is disappointment and resentment. There was a while there where I felt I almost hated Leo. As time moved on, I got over it. I’d only just gotten there when news of Leo’s resignation did the circuits. If Leo’s leaving were to occur in another month or two, my respect for Leo would have been fully restored, except this time, without the blinkers. Hey, who doesn’t have faults? I just needed time to recover from the wound removing the blinkers left.
As it is, I was sad because Leo’s energy and intelligence brightened the office, and he backed his staff when it came to senior management pressure.
When trying to find words for Leo’s card, one flittered across my mind, “if you treat every woman as if she were a beloved daughter and every man like your beloved son, then the world will be, in theory, a much nicer place” – or words to that effect. They were a little “out there” for a farewell card. Nonetheless, it’s useful.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Analysis
Carryover Cards
Three cards carried over from yesterday; Letting Go moved from Goal to Now, Stress moved from Feelings to Distant Past, Abundance moved from Outcome to Recent Past.
Cross
In the Distant Past, my blinkers of Leo, or the removal of my blinkers of Leo, caused me Stress mainly, when his unconscious bias affected me. More recently, the attention I’d learnt to integrate my respect for personality with the unconscious bias and continue to do what I could to help him understand it exists. This task will fall to those in his new environment.
The Now position has Letting Go, which is fitting considering it has to do with my disappointment and my respect. First and foremost, I was doing the right thing – influenced by Morality.
As I’ve stated, I didn’t know where I stood; I felt that I needed to be sadder at Leo’s leaving – and I was – but not as low as I thought I should be. Alas, Guilt is the Goal.
As a result of Leo’s leaving, I’m opening up more to new ideas. Hence, Future Energy shows Receptivity.
Base
The good thing about my equanimous Feelings is that I felt the sadness at his leaving, and the confelicity for his new job brought about Feelings of Harmony inside me – a balance.
Others’ Views are of Possibilities opening up for Leo, even with my blinkers off. Leo’s leaving does remove the potential restraint others may have felt was holding me back. I’d been reluctant to leave my position because I enjoyed working with him.
Furthermore, Hopes & Fears have me wishing for Success and fearing what I would do with it if I got it. It’s a bit like a dog chasing a car – does a dog know what he’d do with it if he ever caught it?
Whatever my feelings, Leo’s leaving, and the timing around the healing of my unblinkered respect returning couldn’t have felt more natural, albeit still a little tender. Hence, the Ordinariness card is in the Outcome position.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
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