Thursday, 16 September 2021
Emotional Variance Context
During meditation, I happened upon some resistance. Rather than look at the issue, I focused on my emotional variance – yes, it’s avoidance.
One of the things that happen when you meditate is cleaning out your thoughts. Whether the clearing process is known or unknown, your emotions shift. The emotional variance can be as significant as when some women head toward the feminine monthlies. Notice I didn’t call them mood swings because they’ve gotten such a bad wrap; I thought I’d something a little more “businessy”.
Next is the mood swing from hell; one minute there up in the air, the next they’re in the “I hate men” mood. Closely followed by the “I’m feeling sooky” coupled with the please don’t touch me; and where’s my hot water bottle!
Once cranky mode’s over, it’s appreciation or guilt mode when you appreciate everyone and everything or feel guilty about what you’ve said. Or maybe that was just me!
Fortunately, I no longer experience those mood swings, but the emotional variance created during a 15-minute mediation session can be the same. Unfortunately, I can’t think of a male equivalent for the mood swing.
When I go through this emotional variance in meditation, it means I’m fighting something. Something concept or belief is trying to hold on to, and another part of me wants to shift it. I won’t know I’ve won until the next time I come upon a situation where my reaction differs from how I previous reacted.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Emotional Variance Analysis
Carryover Cards
Two cards carried over from yesterday; Rebirth moved from Now to Distant Past, Projections moved from Influence to Feelings.
Cross
We’re moving quickly at the moment with Rebirth being in the Distant Past, and although there has been Stress in the Recent Past, it has led to a Breakthrough. The Goal of Comparison enabled me to take on feedback others were Sharing (influence) with me and process it during meditation.
Future Energy has Ordinariness. When it comes to weight loss, the Osho recommendation is it’s “… a time now when this easy, natural and utterly ordinary approach to the situations you encounter will bring far better results than any attempt on your part to be brilliant, clever, or otherwise extra-ordinary” (p. 152).
Base
Naturally, I feel the Osho approach in just being relaxed is projecting my desires for ease upon the situation. Hence, my Feelings of Projections.
From the outside, Others’ Views are I’m courageous. I’m unsure why undertaking weight loss requires Courage, in my case.
Conversely, Hopes & Fears shows that I want Guidance and fear I will not get it.
Ultimately, we arrive at Inner Voice in the Outcome position. Inner Voice suggests that the only Guidance I need comes from within and trust my emotions, even if there is a sizeable emotional variance.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
- Tarot Layouts per month
