Monday, 13 September 2021
Heroes Context
When your heroes fail you, it’s a sad moment. If you read yesterday’s post (Day 255), you’ll know I’ve been an ABBA fan for many years. I vaguely recall my parents talking about the Swedish pop group that won the Eurovision song contest with “Waterloo”. Little did I know that ABBA would be in my life for many years to come.
My sister and I used to buy chewing gum card packs. The cards would have part of a larger image on the back. If you taped the cards together, you’d get a “poster” of ABBA. I still clearly remember the picture like it was yesterday. The two girls wore animal print dresses.
We dressed up in 1920’s headbands with feathers and walked around with round hairbrushes for microphones. It worked; I had dark hair, and my sister was a natural blond. There’s no need to guess who played who when it came to the singers. 😁
Naturally, for many years the ABBA girls were our role models. When I watched Agnetha Fältskog’s interview, she was still impressed. By the end of the interview, my admiration for my “hero” rose. Agnetha always liked music and singing and stuck with it.
Inspired, I watched Anni Frid Lyngstad’s. She impressed me with her naturalness, moving to Switzerland – my mother’s Swiss, so I’m biased. Frida was living in the Swiss mountains and connecting with nature. She was active in preserving nature; by the description of the interview, she was an environmentalist. Frida loved walking and being outdoors. I identified because I could see myself in her.
The Fall
Frida, like most, has also been through her share of pain. However, in her interviews (Part 1 and 2), she presents as less dynamic, somehow. A lack of dynamism doesn’t detract from a person’s hero status; it can be humbling.
Then Frida spoke of her foray into the fashion world. Mainly around designing women’s ski gear to be more feminine. Naturally, I was curious and wanted to find out if I would be interested. How cool would it be to wear something designed by Frida from ABBA?! And we live in a world where we have the Internet!
The internet search turned up the designs, and I have to say, hmmm, they were okay. Still, the desire to own something designed by ABBA kept me searching. I looked for something of the environmentalist like the Kickstarter La Mansio bag has a Vegan version (Day 241); I hoped a portion of Frida’s ski gear when to help this or that environmental cause.
Sadly, my search revealed a moment when one of my heroes failed my expectations. Without being able to stop me, Frida’s designs used real fur! Unfortunately, I felt the plummet. It hurt to have my romantic illusion shattered. The Osho cards would say I lived in The Dream, projecting my expectations onto another. It’s my problem
Philosophically, until I work out how I feel about it, I will remain saddened by my tarnished hero. At this point, there’s an internal conflict between letting someone be themselves and using fur for fashion. Moreover, my opinions ebb and flow on the topic like those on abbachat.
Alas, my hero has, for the first time in 30 years, failed me. 😭 So, am I still an ABBA fan? Of course, just my fan-ship will take on a different look and feel.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Heroes Analysis
Carryover Cards
Two cards carried over from yesterday; Awareness moved from Goal to Feelings, Moment to Moment moved from Future Energy to Others’ Views.
Cross
Since today’s cards were all about one of my heroes falling from grace, seeing the Fighting card in the Goal position is a natural fit. Fighting is about retaining control over your triggers.
In the Distant Past, Flowering is about confidence in your abilities and sharing the love. Applied to my ABBA love in the past, it forms an accurate perspective of the past.
More recently (Recent Past), I’ve had to Compromise my perception as one of the four fails to meet my expectations.
Consequently, this all leads to the slightly dark blank slate of No-thingness I’m experiencing Now. New Vision wonderfully influences the No-thingness of potential. Alas, my existing view needs to go back to the drawing board for review in a new light.
Future Energy is about Experiencing the shift in perception.
Base
So, it turns out that yesterday’s Awareness in the Goal position wasn’t from Day 251; it was to discover more about my heroes. I guess that’s what I was doing when I was researching my ABBA heroes on the Internet. By Awareness moving to Feelings today, I became aware of something I probably knew in the back of my mind but didn’t want to acknowledge. And now it’s out in the open.
Furthermore, Moment to Moment moving from yesterday’s Future Energy position to today’s Others’ Views is appears like the manifestation of the cards transition.
Creativity is in the Hopes & Fears position, and I hope the New Vision does not remove my admiration and joy the group has provided me. Nonetheless, I fear the change is permanent; I need Creativity to steer me to a solution.
Finally, Transformation echoing the fundamental irreversible shift I’ve experienced is in the Outcome.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
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