Monday, 30 August 2021
Tinnitus Context
What now? A blocked ear? An infection? Tinnitus? This is a challenging year for my health! If I turn to the metaphysical Louise L Hay p. 190 says, “anger, not wanting to hear”; Annette Noontil says p. 55, for blocked ear, “impatience and intolerance with yourself at not knowing how you will be when you arrive at your destination”. Both are correct as far as I’m concerned.
I’m a SCUBA diver and traveller; sometimes, I get a blocked ear when doing one or both of these activities. When I scuba dive, I’m impatient because I just want to get under the water and start diving, but like Annette states, I’m not always sure what to expect when I get there; likewise, flying to some of the more remote locations.
When it comes to the anger side of tinnitus and not wanting to hear, that happens when I go to work, and politicking is in full motion. It upsets me, and I don’t want to listen to it, so I don’t get involved. What I didn’t realise was how serious I was taking “not wanting to hear” something. My notes don’t tell me what was bothering me, just that I had tinnitus, and it was playing up.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Tinnitus Analysis
Carryover Cards
Two cards carried over from yesterday; The Fool moved from Future Energy to Influence, The Miser moved from Hopes & Fears to Feelings.
Cross
In the Distant Past, I’ve been Fighting the tinnitus or ringing in my ears, and it sets me on-edge with everyone. Recently, the Possibilities to open myself up to new ideas (Recent Past) provided me with a possible way out. I don’t have to put up with tinnitus.
Possibilities expose me to a significant physical shift in Thunderbolt influenced by The Fool. The Goal, if anyone has tinnitus, is Silence. Future Energy has Success; gotta be happy with that!
Base
My Feelings on the issue is that I need to fork out money to obtain that Silence. So, yes, I feel like The Miser.
Others’ Views is Morality, which is somewhat prudish or even a bit of a “goody-two-shoes”, It might be because I try not to get too involved with the politicking.
Maturity in Hopes & Fears means I hope I can take the high road (fits in the perception of Morality). I fear that I’m not mature enough to follow through on it and get caught up in the weeds.
In the end, Awareness is the Outcome, and it will take time to work out why the tinnitus in my ears exists. Perhaps, as the ear-nose-throat specialist said to me: “no one comes in here saying they think they’re going deaf”.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
- Note, I’m finalising the writing of this post on Day 271, which is after my Second Pfizer jab and I’m experiencing extreme tiredness as an after effect.
