Tuesday, 10 August 2021
Trial and Error Context
I mentioned on Day 219 that I was behind in blog writing and needed to catch up because being so far behind was stressing me. Here are my notes from 10 Aug 2021 and the associated tarot analysis. The main thoughts for the day were around trial and error for experimenting on myself to identify the cause of the heart palpitations.
Notes for 10 Aug 2021
- Working from home
- Still feeling unwell from the antibiotics
- I decided to move back into the study to do the writing. My husband watched interesting videos on geography, history, music, and film reactionists, distracting me! It’s all so incredible. The kitchen was also causing me to get side-tracked as I wanted to help with prepping meals, feeding cats and fish.
- Thoughts today were focused on what might be causing the heart palpitations. Perhaps it was a combination of the periodontal salt mix and additional magnesium. Do I embark on a trial and error activity to identify which aspect is causing them? It would be helpful to know.
- The experiment might look like this: week one, pick perio mix and see what happens; week two, stop perio mix and take magnesium? If this doesn’t work, leave everything for a week, then use the two simultaneously? But, alas, at present, I’m enjoying not having them, and I might give it a miss until I feel more adventurous.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Trial & Error Analysis
Carryover Cards
One card carried over from yesterday; Conditioning moved from Distant Past to Hopes & Fears.
Cross
Trying to do things properly is causing anxiety and Suppression. Morality in the Distant Past and Suppression is in the Now influenced by Breakthrough. The thing about Morality in the Distant Past is it impacts everything.
Breakthrough is in juxtaposition to Suppression. I don’t know whether the Breakthrough card is trying to encourage the suppressed to open up or whether it’s causing the inward focus.
The truth is that Laziness in the Recent Past highlights how I left the experimenting too late. It’s not the first time trialling what was causing the palpitations that entered my mind. I simply ignored it, “assuming” (Laziness) the flutters and hoped they’d go away.
Today’s Goal of being split on whether to act or not, Schizophrenia, contributes to the current situation, but I might just need to let the whole topic subside to gain conscious awareness as to the right approach.
Consciousness is in Future Energy, identifying there could be a more holistic view ahead.
Base
I am keen on participating in my health, and I feel Participation is crucial in growth. Suppose Participation takes the form of collaboration with others, in this case, my doctor. Hence, its appearance in the Feelings spot.
Others’ Views is of Ripeness, and again a “timing” card appears (Breakthrough). In short, others think it was about time I got it checked out.
Conditioning sits in the Hopes & Fears position, and, like always, Conditioning is about escaping or learning things aren’t what they seem. So, I fear the heart analysis or visit didn’t satisfy what I wanted to know, and there was an error. On the other hand, there hasn’t been a recurrence, and I hope it stays that way.
Finally, the Outcome is Abundance. Abundance is like Consciousness in that it is about expanding and sharing what one has learnt from one’s own trial and error.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
