Friday, 23 July 2021
Devastated Context
Back on Day 170, we booked to go to New Zealand. Going to New Zealand was something we were looking forward to, but its cancellation devastated me. An appreciation of this feeling only occurs when you’re experiencing the dashing of your hopes first-hand.
I Got News
Anyway, I was devastated at finding out COVID has forced New Zealand’s hand to close the border to Australian visitors, not only closing it but closing it for two months! The decision by the NZ Prime Minister wouldn’t have been easy, but two months! What about a week at a time, or even let’s review in a fortnight?
At my husband’s work, two girls travelling to New Zealand on Monday received cancellation texts. In perspective, these girls would have been devastated to my “it’s still a month away”. But because we all live in individual worlds and our pain and suffering are relevant to the environments we live in, I will leave their devastation to them and instead wallow in mine.
Until my husband texted me with the “poop” emoji, I hadn’t realised how much I had been looking forward to going on our trip. Devastated! It’s how I feel. There is no better word for the way I’m feeling. Oh, okay. Maybe words like heartbroken, gutted, devastated, saddened and devastated. There, see, I tried to find another word.
Fortunately, it looks like we’ll get a full refund of the accommodation because we’re inside the refund window. The flights might need to postpone to another day when we can visit New Zealand. The date we were looking to for our second trip was February 2022.
So, this is how my mum felt when her trip to me got cancelled the first time, and I can now only imagine it being worse the second or third time. No wonder she felt like the Premier of Queensland was targeting her specific local government area. And to think, I laughed at my mum’s frustration. It was partly to ease her hurt, another to laugh, or otherwise, it would be crying.
Numerology and Timing
Suppose my numerology theory holds that anything beginning on the 19th might finish on the 22nd. The hypothesis needs testing on a larger scale. To date, it’s focussed on localised issues on my projects, which seem simple on the 19th and should finish quickly, end up dragging out and resolving on the 22nd.
The issues aren’t always significant dramas or particularly troublesome; it’s just sometimes there’s a delay with a critical person being in the way or a weekend being in the middle; there’s always something. This issue to resolution timeframe estimation is when I notice the consistent timeframes.
Maybe it’s simply my awareness of the two “karmic” numbers, and I watch them more closely, which is more likely. It’s like conformational bias, where you seek information to support your belief. When it comes to COVID, it’s wishful thinking.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Devastated Analysis
Carryover Cards
One card carried over from yesterday; Totality moved from Others’ Views to Recent Past.
Cross
Listening to my Inner Voice, I could feel this change brewing. Australia couldn’t possibly escape the COVID-19 Delta strain completely. Trading a skiing holiday abroad for one close to home is a Compromise, and Compromise is undoubtedly the influence at present.
Aloneness is the Goal, and perhaps this was my hope that we would be alone in our ability to escape the restrictions. We still have time. Jacinda Ardhern, New Zealand’s Head of Government, was definite with a two-month border closure to and from Australia. Darn. I’m/ we’re devastated.
In a state of Exhaustion in the Distant Past, the inspiration for revival in New Zealand was born.
The trip became a reality more recently (Recent Past) as we paid for it in Totality. Totality meant we would also be invested in its pursuit and let down with its cancellation. So, here we are, compromising and listening to our Inner Voice, saying the borders remain shut.
The Future Energy is Ordinariness. Oh, dear. I believe this card was my favourite, but it’s trying its hardest to show how Ordinariness can be frustrating as well as beautiful. When life hands you lemons, make a lemon cocktail. 🍸
Base
My Feelings on the whole situation is we played The Fool and this time in a non-exploratory fashion. Oh wait, it was exploratory in terms of leaping; now The Fool works on many levels.
Others’ Views is of Integration. Working the vacation into our existing environment instead of going outward, we need to go inward. We can do this!
Hopes & Fears are focussed on the refund at this point, or more correctly, how much of a refund we will get. Friendliness seems to imply there is hope we get back almost everything. However, our/I fear that we’ve lost some money in taking the risk to book our trip during COVID. Another worry is, travelling overseas at the moment is becoming a scary prospect.
And the Outcome card being Patience is not unexpected. Many things need to happen, and there’s no rush for them to occur. Patience means waiting for the refund and waiting for New Zealand to open up. Given the time of year when the borders are due to open, we need to wait until next year before we can travel anyway; my husband’s job gets busy over the festive season in December.
You know what an Outcome of Patience does to me? No. Well, it leaves me devastated. It’s not always a strong suit. 😏
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
