15 June 2021
Face Reality Context
As the year progresses, I struggle to reach my goal of posting daily; I needed to face reality and be receptive to sharing differently.
For those of you who have been regular readers, you may have noticed that I’ve been struggling to keep up with daily posts. Since the update on Day 161, I have had a few issues with my template and site setup. For instance, the home page menu has disappeared, and the menu on the blog pages (above) has two menus that overlap each other. It’s time for me to face reality.
Time I Faced Reality
I’m not a web developer, and the three times I’ve tried to get one, it took more time away from what I wanted to do. Yes. It’s my fault for being particular about the design and its look and feel. Ironically, I wanted a better look and have ended up cobbling something together, which I’m happy with but am positive is not proper development 😏.
Obviously, I need to fix the template issues. However, spending time trying to fix these, even if I snag an excellent developer, will still take me away from writing. So, for the next few weeks, I’m trying to say there will be less content, and I will simply focus on the cards and their analysis.
By the way, I fully expect writing in the analysis will blow out, and again this is where I need to learn to keep stricter time limits on my writing. The first wealth is health, and it would be incredibly hypocritical of me to write about health and well-being if I didn’t practice what I preached.
Learning Lessons
I expected managing a website to be easy 😉 – clearly, I didn’t face reality. So, philosophically, there’s a learning in this for me; hopefully, I learn the right thing. But, unfortunately, sometimes there are so many options, and you can pick the wrong lesson through anger or despair.
For instance, my football team loses; I could learn the opposing team are a bunch of scumbags and foster an antagonism toward them and their supporters. Or I could understand that losing hurts; it is part of the game, losing can keep you humble, or realise that you need intense competition to get the buzz of a deserved win.
Other lessons might include you needing to face reality, fierce competition sometimes means your team will lose, or you may need to learn how to handle your emotions if your friend supports the “scumbags” who just beat your team 😇.
The part where I thought I’d struggle was writing ideas, which is not the case. Instead, there’s too much to write each day – even on days when there isn’t much happening. It is pretty impressive how we underestimate what happens in our “ordinary” lives.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Analysis
Carryover Cards
No cards carried over from yesterday.
The Face Reality Cross
Receptivity is in the Now influenced by Sharing. I want to be open and share everything I have with anyone willing to listen. If you come across the website, then it is meant for you to come across. What you do with the information you glean from it is up to you.
In light of today’s apology, Morality sits in the Goal position, indicating that my focus was to do the right thing.
In the past, I was Clinging to the Past, hoping to catch up and hoping to deliver everything a full-time writer and blogger can provide. But I am not them; I am only me and can only be me.
Recently (Recent Past), a renaissance around the site occurred until Day 161 put me back a few steps. The Rebirth was short-lived. I am down, but I’m not out! It will take a little time for me to get back up to date. Who knows, perhaps my process and writing will improve.
The Rebirth made me realise that I needed Receptivity to surrender to a self-inflicted process blocking me from Sharing. Being comfortable with surrender is difficult; to me, it feels like Ice-olation, the card of today’s Future Energy position.
Ice-olation is locking me away and making it difficult for others to reach me. It’s not my preferred mode, but it works like a defence mechanism. It’ll pass.
Base
My Feelings are that of Innocence. Osho’s words on this card are lovely, “The innocence of children is beautiful, but ignorant. It will be replaced by mistrust and doubt as the child grows… But the innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life” (p.40). The website adjustment is about experiencing the ever-changing wonder of life.
Others’ Views see me as having cause for Celebration. For example, maybe people are happy for me to be open to new ideas, changes, acceptance – viewed in this light, it is cause for Celebration.
Hopes and Fears – Okay, the biggest fear is I’m hiding something from myself. Am I pretending to be honest with myself, or am I honest with myself? Would I lie to me? Hiding me from me is Suppression. Hoping my experience is genuine and freedom from Suppression of self emerges.
Finally, argh! Compromise in the Outcome spot. Yuk! Guess that’s what I’m proposing, though; keep the website going at the expense of quality. The project manager’s enemy strikes again.
In project management, there’s the time-cost-quality loop. If you don’t have time, quality suffers; if you don’t have money, quality suffers. In this case, because the website doesn’t produce money (as yet), meaning time is spent earning it elsewhere, and the site’s quality suffers as a result. Grumble. Oh, wait a minute. Does that mean the cards are right? Hmmm. Guess so.
Update to Day 006
When trying to work out what went wrong with the website update, I came across Day 006 and gave it a refresh. The layout’s better because I’ve broken it up into sections. I got Grammarly to check the grammar – it should be easier to read. It was also fun to reminisce.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
