11 June 2021
Sore Throat Context
It was a very quiet day today, as I once again felt sorry for myself on the lounge. These days, much of my time seems to be on recovering from this or that ailment. For example, yesterday afternoon, I got a sore throat. Since I haven’t been out or contacted anyone, and COVID not being in the area, I simply self-isolated.
I spent the day mindlessly playing with May’s statistics for the website. Because formatting and playing with colours and numbers are relaxing for me, the activity is fun and soothing, especially when there’s no pressure to produce them.
The statistics proved interesting as an overall pattern for the month appeared. In previous time-poor months, I hadn’t looked that closely at emerging trends. In January, the top three cards were: Moment to Moment, Flowering, and Control, with Moment to Moment having nine appearances and Flowering and Control, each having eight appearances.
Looking back at January, my focus was initially on getting the website up and running, while toward the end of the month, my focus switched to the broken ankle. In Osho’s words, Moment to Moment “… challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now” (p.140).
In the copying and pasting, I discovered the data uploaded in previous months might be incorrect. Unfortunately, my mind was too befuddled to think straight on the matter, especially since it might be a calculation error. So, I gave up for the day. I’ll catch it when I do June’s stats. This leaving thing until the end of the month won’t work; knowing me, I’ll probably get back to it after I’ve had a break.
Today's Cards
The Cards - Analysis
Carryover Cards
No cards carried over from yesterday.
Cross
Ripeness is in the Now position influenced by Sharing. Given I have got a sore throat, it means I’m withholding things I want to say, putting me in the place of being “ripe” to “share” information.
The Goal is Ordinariness. Peaceful, get on with your life without bothering anyone or anyone bothering you/ me.
Silence has the light at the end of the tunnel and is the card of the Distant Past where darkness seemed intimidating, but by listening and being quiet, Ripeness grew.
More recently, in the Recent Past, there has been a Transformation. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about cryptocurrency and sustaining the website without resorting to advertising. Although some advertising can be worthwhile and tasteful, there are times when it’s simply over the top rude. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I know something subtle but relevant has changed, but for the life of me, I cannot identify it to communicate it.
Ice-olation is the card of Future Energy; this means I’m likely to feel overwhelmed.
Base
In the Feelings or Immediate Future is Aloneness. I do feel alone on my journey because I cannot speak to someone else about what I am experiencing – even those in the industry. As soon as you begin to build a website and try to go it alone because you can’t find a developer you trust, it seems everywhere is the presumption you want to BECOME a developer. Heck no! It’s hard work. Doing both content and development is hard work, particularly since I’m muddling about.
Others’ Views has the Thunderbolt card signalling to me; the perception others have is that I am changing the way I do things. I’m thinking of the work environment when I think I’ve been taking charge of whatever aspects I can get away with – more than ever before. 😄 It might be why I have a sore throat; maybe I’ve been saying too much?
I’m hoping for a Change to occur in me, which will motivate me to get more time miraculously, but I’m fearful it will be the wrong kind of Change. Usually, any wishing for Change comes with downtime, which I no longer want to afford – no more sore throat woes for me!
The Outcome has Harmony. Harmony echoes the Silence card because it encourages listening to your heart, and clarity happens when the mind is silent.
References
- Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
