8 March 2021
Context
Welcome to Day 67!
If it’s worth doing it’s worth overdoing. It’s a phrase my husband has heard me utter a few times over the years and often with mixed results on the outcome. This time, I really think that I may have done some damage to myself. My ankle hurts worse than on the first day when I broke it – not good.
Part of me is trying to work out whether the pain is because the stiffness is on the way out or if it’s something serious. Can you miss the numbness? I’m really hoping it’s the come down from the muscles being extended for so long. The pain is like a shard of glass. Then there’s the swelling. My foot looks like a balloon, not just at the ankle but right up to the toes. It looks like when a rubber glove has been blown up Yeah, really. Even the good ankle seems to be swelling in sympathy.
My instincts are telling me it’s because I haven’t been elevating any part of my leg except when I sleep, and with my average sleep being five hours sleep over the past five nights I have most definitely been neglecting my well being. The signs have been there, with me being too stubborn to see them. For this to work, I will need to take time off my leg.
Tomorrow is going to be rest day. Yes, you read it here in black and white, I’m going to have a rest day. Once again, I’m left to imagining what my ankle looks like repaired because I wasn’t able to look at the x-ray. Oh, the mind does such horrible things with imagination. Sometimes not amount of logical self talk down seems to ease the situation, which in turn gives rise to those emotions of subtle panic. If you are a little like me, make sure you take time out.
To my metaphysical interpretation the left foot swelling is telling me to look to my emotional and mental health as well. This makes sense, since I’ve stopped meditation. My body is telling me something. In some respects, just because you’re busy doesn’t mean you’re not avoiding something else. I suspect, I’m using some of those, “can’t meditate – busy” excuses.
In the name of keeping it short …. let’s see what the cards had to say.
Today's Cards
Day 065
Day 066
Day 067
The Cards - Analysis
How wonderful that The Outsider card has continued. The wonderful thing about this is that it follows the same activity for the three days. Before I get into the “same activity”, let’s focus on the trajectory of The Outsider.
It began on Day 065 in the Outcome position as a prediction for a possible result of the day’s reading. On Day 066, The Outsider appeared in the Now and present position, indicating that it has moved from the predicted position to being actual. On Day 067 The Outsider appears again but this time in the Distant Past letting us know that it has left its mark for a new set of circumstances.
That’s quite an amazing trajectory and it was a very handy way to show card movement, which is something I wondered about when this journey started.
You might be asking yourself, “why today?”, “why did she pick these three days, when these cards have been showing up for the last two months and sometimes in days following each other?”, “what makes this special?”. Glad to see you’re questioning!
Firstly, it’s the right time and the supporting card follow through yesterday helped confirm the journey. Secondly, I’ve been working on the same recognisable conscious part of webpage improvement. You’re good at this critical thinking stuff. Now you might be asking or thinking, “but you’ve also been working on webpage improvement stuff over the past two months!”.
True. But… Previously, the webpage improvement activities varied from day to day. For example, I might have been playing with the page header, logo, templates, or daily layout gallery. These elements aren’t as challenging to me anymore. In the early days, different aspects would frustrate me at different times. This time it was the same aspect, statistics.
The Outsider has meant not understanding how to reach the goal or the people I need to reach out to to get assistance with the statistics or the presentation thereof. Instead, I’ve invested in my own efforts to deliver. In my day job of Project Manager, it’s the holy trinity of “time-cost-quality”. If you don’t have time, you either have to increase how much money you put in or reassess the quality of what goes out. At present, I have time, am reluctant to spend money, and I’ll have to put up with whatever I am able to produce (so quality will vary).
As for today’s other cards, Letting Go is Influenced by Harmony. Harmony is one’s connectedness to your own purpose which is the true definition of reaching Success. The Success card sits in the Goal position. Is it Letting Go of Success – presumably the website – the letting go in the cards?
Perhaps it was The Outsider’s frustrations with statistics, that threw up the question of Letting Go. Looking at the variety of tools and approaches, the Letting Go card could also refer to taking a new approach and letting the old fade. This makes sense in light of the Adventure card sitting in the Recent Past position. Adventure being into the dimension of statistics.
In the Feelings position is Laziness. Ah… my old friend. As mentioned up in the pre analysis section. Laziness doesn’t have to be a lack of activity for something to be lazy. Laziness in the Osho context is about resting on your laurels while everything crumbles. You also don’t need to rest on your laurels for stuff to fall apart.
Laziness is about not doing what needs to be done. In my case, I’ve been too lazy (even now) to elevate my swollen ankles, even when I know it would be the right thing to do. Here I’m taking for granted that my body knows what to do in order to heal without giving it any assistance.
On the other hand, Others’ Views is that I’ve come to a Completion stage. The Success card and others seeing me as Completion implies there must be something I’ve finished. I did get the stats up! Yay!
Hopes & Fears has the card of Awareness. My wish for full Awareness of how to get the stats up – I do have a feeling on this but it needs time to investigate. My fear isn’t that the Awareness will disappear, its that I won’t get time to pursue the thread of an idea and will then consequently forget where to start.
Mind is such a messy card, and to have it as an Outcome card is quite sad. Because Mind in the Outcome position indicates that I need to do some work on it. Did I happen to mention that I hadn’t been meditating? Guess Mind is telling me that it’s something I’ll be working on soon.
References
Osho, Osho Zen Tarot – The Transcendental Game of Zen, St Martin’s Press, ISBN 0-312-11733-7
