Day 038 – Not my fault

Welcome to Day 38!

The day started as predicted and continued as predicted.  Although my energy was quite low.  All I felt like doing was sleeping.  You may or may not be aware that sleep is part of the healing process.  My husband is able to nap through the day when he’s sick and recovers quicker than I do – and I heal pretty quickly anyway.  The frequency healing seems to be helping somewhat because I’ve been really tired.  More than I would expect, definitely more than I was before I began the frequency healing.

It’s not all healing though, I have been up later than usual but also getting up later and figure the two balance each other out.  However, when I was growing up there was a common belief that an hour’s sleep before midnight was worth two after midnight.  Not sure how true that is either.   

All my life I’ve been using myself as a Petri dish for alternative healing.  Initially, I eschewed allopathic medicine (“the treatment of disease by conventional means, i.e. with drugs…” and surgery – refer references Apple Dictionary).  Following in part the philosophical principles of yin-yang to find a balance, I considered myself to be more on the fence on the subject than actively against it – although there were times.  This is part was also a subtle rebellion against my father who was a nurse and worked for the medical profession, at a time when my father and I did not get along.

What I used to do, in trying to find a balance against people who thought the medical profession was the answer to everything, was over-correct to the opposite extreme just to balance the argument.  The greater the bias the greater the correction. It was that whole equal and opposite reaction law thing emerging in an argument rather than physics. Later, I realised that this wasn’t balancing or accomplishing anything except getting people off side.  It also made me look like an extremist.  With the help of meditation I learnt not to react to the extreme end of the discussion if it didn’t align with what I actually believed.  

For the record, my belief is there is or should be room for both medical and alternative forms of healing. You just need to be smart about the alternative method you select for yourself.  This means knowing yourself, in particular your own weaknesses.  My weakness has been that I tend to subscribe to the principle of “if it’s worth doing, it’s worth overdoing!”.  Sometimes when it comes to healing, this is a definite disadvantage! 

Each body organ has a different resonance. But like with anything, do some research and although anecdotal evidence isn’t the best source because of its subjectivity, sometimes it’s the only thing available. In those circumstances you might try going with quantitative data from different sources to form a picture of possible outcomes.    

Alternately, you have to accept that you’re the head of the spear pioneering along the path less taken and accept the risk.  If it doesn’t work out well, own the decision. This is the toughest part and where most people come a-cropper and hand out blame in all directions.  Do this when you are clear headed and sure of your action, play out worst case scenario and imagine how you’re going to react if it’s that.  Also play out what you’ll do if you get an unknown and unexpected scenario because that’s the likely scenario where you’ll want to shift blame and responsibility.  It is for me anyway. 

Speaking of lashing out when making a poor decision.  Today had one of those moments.  There’s a certain smoothie company that has an app that lets you place your order in advance of your arrival to save queuing time. Every time I’ve used the app in the past, I’ve been in the carpark of the shopping centre/ mall. The app defaults to the store closest to you. 

Thought I would get ahead of the waiting to make waiting time, so my husband didn’t have to leave halfway through his lunch to grab my smoothie.  Instead of waiting to get to the carpark, I decided to order on the way  So, I opened the app, selected my smoothie, selected the what I thought was my default store, paid and voila!   When arriving at the allocated pickup time, my smoothie wasn’t there or on their docket order.  Huh?

Looking at the receipt, its gone to another store!  The app must have taken the “closest” store from when I opened the app.  This is what you get when you don’t double-check. Both stores are on the same road, just different suburbs.  I made an assumption that it would default to my usual store and because I never go to the other store, it didn’t even enter my mind as a possibility.  

Annoyed that I had to buy another smoothie.  I rang the other store, due to noise on both my end and that store’s end we had difficulty communicating.  Still more annoyed that I couldn’t advise that I wouldn’t be able to pick up that smoothie, I gave the store a mediocre review on the feedback that just popped up in the midst of my annoyance. 

As you can see, the feedback was unwarranted and I felt remorse the second it had gone.  Now to compound everything I had made another mistake. Darn, then I felt bad, all because I reacted because I didn’t want the error to be my fault.  Hopefully, there’s some resilience in the feedback numbers to balance my feedback.

Anyway, let’s see what the cards had to say.