5 January 2021
Today, I wrangle with an exercise hangover, and the headache is not from too much thinking! Although, overthinking was a struggle sometimes.
Firstly, yesterday I got out my yoga mat and decided it was time to exercise to maintain flexibility. I turned on the Nintendo Wii and put in the Fitness First yoga disk.
Today, I had an exercise hangover from the exertion, and the lactic acid in my muscles contributed to a headache. Even with a couple of headache tablets, the thumping was still there, chastising me for being so thoughtless not to continue yoga as part of my regular exercise regime.
On the whole, I wasn’t feeling well and was keeping my activity to a minimum – basically sitting on the couch feeling sorry for myself.
Let’s see what the cards had to say about my day!
Today's Cards
The Beginning of Too Much Thinking
The first card is the card of Maturity. The Maturity card refers to being comfortable with your skills. For me, that’s true because I can get a post onto a website now 🎉.
It’s interesting to see the Harmony in the Influence position. Harmony influencing Maturity would mean the maturity I have gained comes from a place of peace and ease instead of, say… frustration.
The Goal position is Morality. Because I am aware of my situation instead of reading for someone else, I will differ from Osho’s interpretation. Except Osho highlights that this card is about being prim, proper and following what society expects when it constrains us.
Sometimes I read this card to mean wanting to do things “properly”. For instance, I would like to edit my website properly rather than winging it. And as a snow ski instructor said to me, there are two types of skiers those who can survive the mountain and those who can ski it. His comment was in response to discovering I was an Australian in a ski lesson, and it wasn’t my first lesson. The first class will teach you how to survive the mountain. The more you attend classes, the better at skiing you get.
Australians in Switzerland had a reputation for being terrors on the slopes because they did one or two classes and thought that’s all there was to skiing. Unfortunately, it made them dangerous to others and not very popular or thought of an overthinking anything – skiing wise.
Sometimes Morality can be a good thing. I want to build my website, and I’d like to be doing it correctly. Not because I want to conform and be constrained, it’s because I want to be efficient and considerate to others using the mountain.
Still Overthinking
No-thingness appears in the same position as on Day 3. Today’s events were born out of potential. Two days ago was Sunday, and when I start an exercise regime, it’s usually started on a Monday. That’s when I made the decision I had to exercise.
The Recent Past with The Miser in this position may resemble the fact I had previously been stingy with my exercise. Also, I’m probably too cheap to pay for a gym when my argument is that if I can’t get myself motivated at home, how will a gym be different?
That brings us to Future Energy which has another one of my favourite cards, Mind – not! Luckily for me, I did not notice this card at the beginning of the day because it usually means mental turmoil. The Mind card itself is enough to induce confusion. Today my Mind was possibly simply a reflection of my headache.
Layout Base of Too Much Thinking
The next card is easy to work out Healing. Indeed, I felt getting acquainted with the couch was a method of healing. I could not do much except binge watch something.
Now I’m not sure how to interpret the Projections card. Based on what I said on day one, Projections is about placing your expectations upon another. Does it mean I’m projecting onto others? Or am I feeling the projections of others? Thinking on it, it’s probably the latter. The only barometer I have in my situation is me, and therefore, if I am feeling sorry for myself, I expect my husband to do likewise 😏.
The Comparison card in the Hopes & Fears position is a caution against comparing myself and others. For the last couple of days, I have progressed quite nicely with my knowledge and, in the background, some future content. The fear when seeing a “lack” of progress is that I will give up on it.
Comparison gives me pause and makes me recite my current mantra, “I am not them, and they are not me, I need to let each of us be free”. “Free” meaning free to each be ourselves without harsh judgment. Just because I can guess what someone might be thinking doesn’t mean the person will act upon it. Like Agatha Christie’s, Hercule Poirot commented that it is okay to kick a table when you are angry with someone, but it is not the same as kicking the person.
The Outcome
Anyway, the Schizophrenia card as the Outcome indicates being at war between a rock and a hard place. Osho’s suggestion for overcoming the difficulty is to let go of both things at once. I’m writing this at 11:00 PM, and the cards dealt at 8:00 AM. The difference between dealing and writing allowed for a headache to form, and to continue writing is a challenge for me.
After five minutes of trying, it became apparent that I was accomplishing nothing on the website, and the thinking was delaying my headache from getting better. Any thought seemed to make concentration all the more challenging. Welcome to Osho’s definition of Schizophrenia.
Did I mention I was stubborn? Well, I can be. I persisted a little longer to try and do both, but the third option of self-pity won out. A good thing, too, because I would have hated to miss writing this post.
Overthinking the Summary
Harmony allows Maturity around the growth that seemed so painful at first. However, the Goal of Morality, doing things correctly, has been set from a past full of potential (No-thingness) to the tight constraints of The Miser putting limits on growth. Breaking free will confuse the Mind.
Confusion is the beginning of new growth and Healing. Taking time to heal is necessary. Others’ Views are Projections of themselves or perhaps placing unrealistic interpretations on the questioner.
The fear borne of Comparison can be limiting, but Comparison can be helpful if it is with oneself and one’s personal growth.